My cousing brought the nieces to lunch today, they are getting bigger by the day! So cute! :)
With my cousins here, the house is full of kids and it's fun!

Will try to post pics later, but now I must find something to wear to my friend's cousin's christening for tonight! 

I went out this afternoon with my parents and some friends and then I invited my parents to come and have a drink with my friend Maite, who is in town this weekend. It was warm and nice and we ended having a couple of beers and something to eat while we talked about our futures with my parents.
Whn they headed home we went to have another drink and stumbled upon my brother and Esti, with whom we ended having dinner and chatting for a while.
we got some time to ourselves too, making plans about a trip with our moms and other silly stuff. I'm meeting her again on Sunday, so we get bus tickets to go back to Madrid on Monday, since I'll be staying at her place when I go there for my exam.

All in all, a nice evening :)

I wonder where is the line between being sad because of certain events in life and being depressed.
I spent the day at home, yesterday, watching Numb3rs episodes while I tried to work on an exercise. I tried to work without the series, to be less distracted, but I couldn't face the silence.
I talk to my mom about that and how I'm considering going back to Madrid for the second term and she got mad at me. Anytime I try, I feel weak for not being able to cope with things and all I get are lectures about people in other terrible situations that found a way to deal with htem and be okay. Geez, that makes me feel great, mom!
I know I'm sad about the breakup, but the fact is that one of the main reasons for the boy to dump me was that I was making his life hell by my constant need of attention, reassurance and mood swings. And then, there's this little voice in my mind that keeps thinking "'What if I got well enough to be functional again and not hurt everyone around me...?"
The things is, I think I'm depressed. I have pretty good days (even amazing ones), but the second I'm alone, I have trouble breathing and seeing things clearly. Sometimes, also when I'm around people. I can't concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes and I have been not studying. And I can't be like that, so there has to be something wrong with me. Something that, hopefully, should be able to be fixed, but I don't know how to or if I can, alone.

All this is not helped by my last talk with the boy, who says he misses me and loves me and wants me, but... either not the same way as I want him to, specially because I'm far away... Gack. That boy is gonna get serious brain damage when I get to him :D

I didn't expect this even in my wildest dreams but I have passed the four exams I did in February. 

*happy happy happy dance*


Which makes me even more angry for not being able to take the boy on holidays, grrrrrrrrrrrrr 


But still... joing the happy dance!!!

I've lost my motivation and can't be bothered to study. Everytime I look at the book and I get the feeling that it is completely useless as I am going to fail anyway... :(

On better news, we had a fun pizza & movie night yesterday, so at least I kept myself distracted

How can someone need 1 hour in the bathroom just about every morning??? What is she doing in there? I woke up 1 hour ago and I've had time to whinge in my journal, catch up on my f-list, make coffee, have cereal for breaky, check BC forums, tidy up my room and get my stuff ready for uni and SHE IS STILL IN THERE!!!
As someone who is in and out the shower in 5 minutes and ready to go in 10, Clare amazes me, LOL!

I'm planning my trip to Italy for the end of March instead of studying Mechanics.
My parents will be home in less than 2 hours, but I managed not to make too much mess while they were gone, so that won't take long and I even planned lunch :)

A classmate just texted me to tell that I got 7/7 points on my Atmospherical Physics test from a couple of weeks ago! That means 1 extra point on my final grade, woot!!!

*does happy dance*

3 hours until I leave for class, about 40% of the exercise completed (although it doesn't look too good).
Just thought someone migth want to know ;D

I'm having one of those Mondays today.
Went to be late last night, working on lab report. Woke up around 5am and it took me ages to get back to sleep, only to wake up again at 7:30, work a bit more on paper and run to class.
Home for quick lunch, print paper and nap for 20 minutes before a neverending lab.
Back home and big argument with mom, because I was whiney (imagine that? LOL!) and she got pissed off at me. Now I'm an antisocial and it's my own fault that I don't enjoy xmas and I should get a costume like the rest of the family and stop being different on purpose.
Not that she was not right in some things, but mom, I only slept around 4 hours last night!!!
Sarah and her mom were back late and didn't want any dinner (after telling me they would), so I decided to make an omelette, for which I dropped half of the eggs on the floor.
Gah!

I'm determined not to leave my room again until it's Tuesday, just in case. Tomorrow will definitely be a better day, if I can manage to sleep properly :)

Oh! And 3 mini-points to anyone who gets me a nice whining icon :D

A picture for Nimisha.

I went with dad to take some pics yesterday afternoon, but the access to the castle was closed (no wonder, as it's been a ruin for ages). I was experimenting with B&W and managed to take at least a decent one.


As always, larger version on flickr

My CD from gir1fromipanema
I more or less liked all the songs and even found out there's a James Blunt song that I dn't strongly dislike, LOL!

1. The Girl From Ipanema -Astrud Gilberto (LOL, this one made me smile!)
2. Wilder Mann - Bernardette La Hengst (Loved the song, I had to check the lyrics)
3. Kalender - Attwenger (loved the percussion and the voice... I wonder what does he say, my german is good, but I can't make up Bavarian, :D)
4. Section IIIA -Ensemble Modern - The Great Ocean Road -Christopher Gordon (this one is amazing, I need to find out more about this ensemble)
6. O Sonho -Madredeus (I do't think I remembered this Madredeus song, but I love fados)
7. Meu Piao -Astrud Gilberto (I like the beginning of this song)
8. Die Eine - Fink (different of what I'm used to, but not bad)
9. SEID IHR MIT MIR (Live) -Xavier Naidoo
10.Lousiana 1927 -Randy Neuman
11. No Bravery -James Blunt (yup, James Blunt depresses me)
12. Memorial Day -Thirty Odd Foot Of Grunts (I love the voice of the singer in this one)
13. The Great Nations of Europe -Randy Neuman

I liked the others too, just don't have anything to comment on them :)

Mark today's date on your calendars, because something historic just happened.
I AM NOT HUNGRY! :D

You may go back to normality now...

PS: No, there has been no Liquid Friday for me today :P

Stolen from thepolliwog and wishing I could drink margaritas!

You Are a Blueberry Margarita

Honestly, there's no one quite like you. And believe it or not, most people think that's a bad thing! You're open, wild, friendly, wacky, and tons of fun. You have a big personality... and a big heart.

I'm craving for lemon cookies. Can't find any on the store and there's not a recipe I like on the internet... I'm off to have a look at my hundreds of recipes, to see if I find one.
Does anybody have an easy and yummy recipe?

Just because.

Before the end of the year I want to:

-Read at least 5 books in German
-Read at least 5 books in French
-Finish the Divine Comedy
-Read the Quixote.

That's all from my insane mind for now :D

But this sounds quite right... and it would be nice if that fortune were true :D

You Are The Star

You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!